The hot tea was dripping inside throat. I am sitting near the window and watching kids paying in the garden. Wanted to call them inside as it was drizzling but they looked careless of getting wet.
The calendar on the table grabbed my attention. It is 21st November today. I grew old over the years, crossed many stages in life, saw quite a few ups and downs, but still the day is clear in my memory when I took part in my friend’s birthday.
The first meet was very casual and somehow I didn’t like the shirt what he was wearing. I came to know his name by an email dropped in my mail box early in the morning saying its his birthday today. I don’t know what made me to wish him immediately, just did that as if I know him since years..! Who knew he will become a part of my life in the future ! All I noticed was his smile !
He was a perfect blend of maturity, intelligence and smart. Just that he has created a wall around him so that he can get away from all the troubles which can affect him and his family. No one knew what he is from deep inside. But somehow he was an open book for me, I read him line by line, word by word. He is sweet, caring and also a responsible guy. The cutest of all was his smile.
I took almost 2 years to get him out of that shell. I didn’t believe my ears when he called me his girlfriend. He celebrated his birthday twice in those years, I wanted to be alone with him on that day, which never happened. I used to be very naughty with him, careless about his reactions. But then he accepted me as I am.
Years gone, became close, so close that he used to advice me what medicine to take during difficult periods. There was nothing which have I hidden from him and same with him too. In the mean time, another girl entered his life on his big day of life. Though I didn’t attend the function, I was sitting somewhere alone and wishing for all the success and happiness for the future. For sometime we were in touch through mails and calls, it gradually reduced later. Last time I met him was to receive the invitation and wished him luck with a warm hug. But then he was blind to see my tears. ! Yes, he was going away day by day.
Last week, when I was shopping for vegetables in the market, a familiar voice got into my ears, and I just turned back. It was him with a lady next to him. May be his wife. While I was still wondering should I go and talk to him, he looked at me and he almost screamed ! He is still the same, except lot of weight and almost no hair on his head. But then, his million dollar smile, for which I used to admire him a lot, has the same sweetness. I took a long breath as my heart was beating twice than the normal. He came near me and introduced his wife. My eyes were searching for something, he noticed that, I guess and he said kids are with mom..! I had a lot to talk to him, but somehow my tongue refused to do its part. I just swallowed everything and came home back. I even forgot to give them address though I invited them home.
And today its his birthday, I wanted to wish him, but I don’t have his number. I looked outside, the rain has stopped and children were still playing. Everything is still the same just that years gone by and everything has become a memory. My wishes remained as wishes forever.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Monday, June 16, 2008
The magic of “giving”..!!
I was reading newspaper today, and an article with the above title grabbed my attention.
It is what you can give that shows your real worth. Once in everybody’s lifetime, a bit of magic that reminds them of the importance of the word “give”. As they say, it’s more blessed to give than to receive. Giving and receiving is like action and reaction in each and every day life. Receiving is always based on what we give to others. If we can give a pinch of love, we will get handful in return.
I believe in giving without any expectations in return. That way I feel more content, happy and satisfied when I see the other person who received. It can be in terms of happiness, advice, or sometimes even finance also, but for the people who is really in the need.
An incident which happened some 5-6 years back, reminds me how giving can be more satisfied. It was only few months after my marriage, my brother was supposed to get operated on his nose as he had breathing problem. I joined my mother in taking care of home and my brother too. My brother was so attached to me; I had to be with him whole day in the hospital. One day, after getting discharged, I came back to hospital with him for the general check up. We were waiting in the out-patient department, I saw an old women sitting on the floor and crying. There was no one seemed to be with her. I couldn’t stop myself helping her out. I asked her gently, that what was her problem and whom is she waiting for. She wiped her tears as she wanted somebody to listen to her and started. She was from some other city and came down to see her son who is married and got settled in Shimoga. One day morning when she was cleaning and washing the compound area, a person on the scooter hit her, when she fell down, the front tyre passed on her right hand. She was screaming out of the pain, but that person didn’t even look back and ran from there as if it becomes a police case. Her son, being so poor, couldn’t take her to any hospital immediately. Next day, when she started crying as she couldn’t resist, her son took her to a government hospital, asked her to wait for the doctor and left from there as he has to go to his daily earning work.
My heart cried for her. I didn’t find her fraudulent, because her hand was swollen and the tears were not stopping out of the pain. I couldn’t help her much apart from giving handful of money out of what I had that time. My tears wished her to get well soon. She did refuse to take money from me initially, but when I forced her to take, she held my hand and said, she’ll be my daughter in the next life and serve me her whole life and also said, God will surely help me when I’m in the need.
This kind of incident never happened in my life, but her blessings worked many a times, I feel. My brother became alright soon. Next year, my husband had to be hospitalized for two months because of some problem in his backbone. I cried and prayed God by my heart for him. Doctor had told us that he might not lead the normal life once he gets operated.
May be that old women’s blessings were with me, he soon became alright surprisingly with a normal treatment and now we are leading a happy life. I often remember that lady who blessed me whole heartedly.
Just a small help to someone, brought so much into my life. As said in Bhagavadgeeta, “Karmanye vadhikaraste, ma phaleshu kadachana” I do my best without expecting the results and so I will be happy.
It is what you can give that shows your real worth. Once in everybody’s lifetime, a bit of magic that reminds them of the importance of the word “give”. As they say, it’s more blessed to give than to receive. Giving and receiving is like action and reaction in each and every day life. Receiving is always based on what we give to others. If we can give a pinch of love, we will get handful in return.
I believe in giving without any expectations in return. That way I feel more content, happy and satisfied when I see the other person who received. It can be in terms of happiness, advice, or sometimes even finance also, but for the people who is really in the need.
An incident which happened some 5-6 years back, reminds me how giving can be more satisfied. It was only few months after my marriage, my brother was supposed to get operated on his nose as he had breathing problem. I joined my mother in taking care of home and my brother too. My brother was so attached to me; I had to be with him whole day in the hospital. One day, after getting discharged, I came back to hospital with him for the general check up. We were waiting in the out-patient department, I saw an old women sitting on the floor and crying. There was no one seemed to be with her. I couldn’t stop myself helping her out. I asked her gently, that what was her problem and whom is she waiting for. She wiped her tears as she wanted somebody to listen to her and started. She was from some other city and came down to see her son who is married and got settled in Shimoga. One day morning when she was cleaning and washing the compound area, a person on the scooter hit her, when she fell down, the front tyre passed on her right hand. She was screaming out of the pain, but that person didn’t even look back and ran from there as if it becomes a police case. Her son, being so poor, couldn’t take her to any hospital immediately. Next day, when she started crying as she couldn’t resist, her son took her to a government hospital, asked her to wait for the doctor and left from there as he has to go to his daily earning work.
My heart cried for her. I didn’t find her fraudulent, because her hand was swollen and the tears were not stopping out of the pain. I couldn’t help her much apart from giving handful of money out of what I had that time. My tears wished her to get well soon. She did refuse to take money from me initially, but when I forced her to take, she held my hand and said, she’ll be my daughter in the next life and serve me her whole life and also said, God will surely help me when I’m in the need.
This kind of incident never happened in my life, but her blessings worked many a times, I feel. My brother became alright soon. Next year, my husband had to be hospitalized for two months because of some problem in his backbone. I cried and prayed God by my heart for him. Doctor had told us that he might not lead the normal life once he gets operated.
May be that old women’s blessings were with me, he soon became alright surprisingly with a normal treatment and now we are leading a happy life. I often remember that lady who blessed me whole heartedly.
Just a small help to someone, brought so much into my life. As said in Bhagavadgeeta, “Karmanye vadhikaraste, ma phaleshu kadachana” I do my best without expecting the results and so I will be happy.
My re-incarnation
Reincarnation is the next birth of a soul after the death. It is a belief that soul will never die, it is only the body which gets released. The cycle of death and rebirth is governed by karma, which is the sum of one's actions, and the force that determines one's next reincarnation. One is reborn on account of desire: a person desires to be born because he or she wants to enjoy worldly pleasures, which can be enjoyed only through a body. After many births, every person eventually becomes dissatisfied with the limited happiness that worldly pleasures can bring. At this point, a person begins to seek higher forms of happiness, once all desires for the pleasures of the world will vanish, the person will not be reborn anymore. When the cycle of rebirth thus comes to an end, a person is said to have attained moksha, or salvation.
Keeping the beliefs and theories apart, my desire is to be helpful to every one on the earth without expecting anything in return. If given chance, I would like to reborn as a “Mango Tree”, so that I can provide the protection, good health and be useful even after the death. Once my desires get fulfilled and based on the karma that I do being a mango tree, I will not have a re-birth and be with GOD as an angel.
Keeping the beliefs and theories apart, my desire is to be helpful to every one on the earth without expecting anything in return. If given chance, I would like to reborn as a “Mango Tree”, so that I can provide the protection, good health and be useful even after the death. Once my desires get fulfilled and based on the karma that I do being a mango tree, I will not have a re-birth and be with GOD as an angel.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
ಹೇಳಿ ಹೋಗು ಕಾರಣ....
ಹೇಳ ಹೆಸರಿಲ್ಲದ ಹಲವು
ಕಾರಣಗಳು ಮನ ನೋಯಲು
ಆಪ್ತವಾಗಿರಲಿ ಈ ಹಂಗು ಸಾಕು
ಕಾದಿದೆ ಆ ಒಂದು ಕ್ಷಣ ನೀ
ತೆರೆವ ಬಾಗಿಲಿಗೆ,ಕರೆವ ದನಿಗೆ
ಪುಟ ತೆರೆದಿದೆ ಇನ್ನೂ ಅಲ್ಲೆ
ನೀನಿಲ್ಲದ ಖಾಲಿತನ ಹಿಂಡುತ್ತಿದೆ
ಎದೆ ಹೊತ್ತಿ ಉರಿಯುತ್ತಿದೆ
ಉಸಿರು ಬತ್ತಿ ಸಾಯುತ್ತಿದೆ
ದಿಕ್ಕು ಬದಲಾದರೇನಂತೆ
ಹಾದಿ ಬಯಲಾದರೇನಂತೆ
ಒಮ್ಮೆ ಹೇಳಿ ಹೋಗು ಕಾರಣ
ಮರೆವೆನೆಂದು ಕುಳಿತರೆ
ನಿನ್ನ ನೆನಪುಗಳ
ಮೆರವಣಿಗೆಗಳ ಸಾಲು ಸಾಲು
ಮರಳಿ ಬರಲಾರದ ಹೃದಯವ
ನೆನೆದು ಮನದ
ಮುಗಿಲೊಳಗೀಗ ಮಳೆಯಿಲ್ಲ..!!
ಕಾರಣಗಳು ಮನ ನೋಯಲು
ಆಪ್ತವಾಗಿರಲಿ ಈ ಹಂಗು ಸಾಕು
ಕಾದಿದೆ ಆ ಒಂದು ಕ್ಷಣ ನೀ
ತೆರೆವ ಬಾಗಿಲಿಗೆ,ಕರೆವ ದನಿಗೆ
ಪುಟ ತೆರೆದಿದೆ ಇನ್ನೂ ಅಲ್ಲೆ
ನೀನಿಲ್ಲದ ಖಾಲಿತನ ಹಿಂಡುತ್ತಿದೆ
ಎದೆ ಹೊತ್ತಿ ಉರಿಯುತ್ತಿದೆ
ಉಸಿರು ಬತ್ತಿ ಸಾಯುತ್ತಿದೆ
ದಿಕ್ಕು ಬದಲಾದರೇನಂತೆ
ಹಾದಿ ಬಯಲಾದರೇನಂತೆ
ಒಮ್ಮೆ ಹೇಳಿ ಹೋಗು ಕಾರಣ
ಮರೆವೆನೆಂದು ಕುಳಿತರೆ
ನಿನ್ನ ನೆನಪುಗಳ
ಮೆರವಣಿಗೆಗಳ ಸಾಲು ಸಾಲು
ಮರಳಿ ಬರಲಾರದ ಹೃದಯವ
ನೆನೆದು ಮನದ
ಮುಗಿಲೊಳಗೀಗ ಮಳೆಯಿಲ್ಲ..!!
To my best friend..
I accept you in confidence,
I listen and admire your wisdom.
We are one when we are together,
You and I will always be friends.
When you are angry,
I am there to sooth your aggression.
When you are sad,
I am there to cheer you up.
What we enjoy doing together comes natural,
We accept life and move ahead.
We have a trust that is very rare,
You and I will always be friends.
I listen and admire your wisdom.
We are one when we are together,
You and I will always be friends.
When you are angry,
I am there to sooth your aggression.
When you are sad,
I am there to cheer you up.
What we enjoy doing together comes natural,
We accept life and move ahead.
We have a trust that is very rare,
You and I will always be friends.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
ನಿನ್ನ ನಿರೀಕ್ಷೆಯಲ್ಲಿ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ನನ್ನ ಕೈಗಳಲ್ಲಿನ್ನೂ
ನಿನ್ನ ಬಿಸುಪು, ಸ್ಣಿಗ್ಧತೆ, ಮಾರ್ಧವತೆ ಮತ್ತು
ಒಂದಿಸ್ತು ತಂಪು ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ
ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ಹಾದಿಯಲ್ಲಿನ್ನೂ
ಕೆಂಡ ಸಂಪಿಗೆ ಕಂಪು, ಸೂರ್ಯಾಸ್ತದ ಕೆಂಪು
ಹೂ ಮಾರುವ ಮುದುಕಿಯ ಬೊಚ್ಚು ಬಾಯ
ಇಷ್ತಗಲದ ನಗೆ ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ಬೀದಿ ತಿರುವಿನ
ಮಿನಾರಿನ ಗುಂಬಜಿನಲ್ಲಿ ನಿನ್ನ ಖಿಲ್ಲನೆ ನಗೆ
ಅಜಾನಿನಂತೆ ರಿಂಗನಿಸುತ್ತಾ
ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ನಿನ್ನ ನೆನಪುಗಳಿನ್ನೂ
ದೊಡ್ಡ ದನಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ರಣಕೇಕೆ ಹಾಕುತ್ತಾ ನನ್ನೆದೆಯಲ್ಲಿ
ಇಣುಕಿ ನೋಡಬಲ್ಲಸ್ತು ದೊಗರು ಮಾಡುತ್ತಾ
ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನಾನಲ್ಲೇ ಉಳಿದಿದ್ದೇನೆ; ಸಂತೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಅಮ್ಮನ
ಕೈ ಬೆರಳು ತಪ್ಪಿದ ಕಂಗಾಲು ಮಗುವಿನಂತೆ
ಕಣ್ಣಿಗಡರಿದ ಧೂಳು ಒರೆಸಲೂ ಮರೆತಂತೆ
ಹಸಿದ ಬೆವಾರಿಸು ಜೀವ ಹಿಡಿ ಅನ್ನಕ್ಕೆ ಕಾದಂತೆ
ಮತ್ತು ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ.....
ನಿನ್ನ ಬಿಸುಪು, ಸ್ಣಿಗ್ಧತೆ, ಮಾರ್ಧವತೆ ಮತ್ತು
ಒಂದಿಸ್ತು ತಂಪು ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ
ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ಹಾದಿಯಲ್ಲಿನ್ನೂ
ಕೆಂಡ ಸಂಪಿಗೆ ಕಂಪು, ಸೂರ್ಯಾಸ್ತದ ಕೆಂಪು
ಹೂ ಮಾರುವ ಮುದುಕಿಯ ಬೊಚ್ಚು ಬಾಯ
ಇಷ್ತಗಲದ ನಗೆ ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ಬೀದಿ ತಿರುವಿನ
ಮಿನಾರಿನ ಗುಂಬಜಿನಲ್ಲಿ ನಿನ್ನ ಖಿಲ್ಲನೆ ನಗೆ
ಅಜಾನಿನಂತೆ ರಿಂಗನಿಸುತ್ತಾ
ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನೀನಂದು ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದ ನಿನ್ನ ನೆನಪುಗಳಿನ್ನೂ
ದೊಡ್ಡ ದನಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ರಣಕೇಕೆ ಹಾಕುತ್ತಾ ನನ್ನೆದೆಯಲ್ಲಿ
ಇಣುಕಿ ನೋಡಬಲ್ಲಸ್ತು ದೊಗರು ಮಾಡುತ್ತಾ
ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ ಉಳಿದಿದೆ...
ನಾನಲ್ಲೇ ಉಳಿದಿದ್ದೇನೆ; ಸಂತೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಅಮ್ಮನ
ಕೈ ಬೆರಳು ತಪ್ಪಿದ ಕಂಗಾಲು ಮಗುವಿನಂತೆ
ಕಣ್ಣಿಗಡರಿದ ಧೂಳು ಒರೆಸಲೂ ಮರೆತಂತೆ
ಹಸಿದ ಬೆವಾರಿಸು ಜೀವ ಹಿಡಿ ಅನ್ನಕ್ಕೆ ಕಾದಂತೆ
ಮತ್ತು ಇನ್ನೂ ಹಾಗೇ.....
Monday, October 8, 2007
ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಸೂರ್ಯ
ಸೂರ್ಯಕಾಂತಿ ನಾನು
ನಿನ್ನ ಸುತ್ತ ಪರಿಭ್ರಮಿಸಿ
ತನ್ನದೇ ಪಥ ಅಕ್ಷಗಳನ್ನು
ಸೃಜಿಸಿಕೊಂಡ ಪ್ರುಥೆ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಚಂದ್ರ
ಕೊಳದ ನೈದಿಲೆ ನಾನು
ಎಲೆಯ ಮೇಲಣ ನೀರ ಹನಿಯನ್ನು
ಮುತ್ತಿನಂತೆ ಸಿಂಗರಿಸುವ
ಪ್ರತಿಫಲಿಸುವ ಸಂಭ್ರಮ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಕಡಲ ತಡಿ
ನಿನ್ನ ತಾಕುವ ಬೆಲ್ನೊರೆ ಅಲೆ ನಾನು
ಬೊಬ್ಬಿರಿದು ಅಬ್ಬರಿಸಿ ಉಬ್ಬಿ
ಕೆನೆದು ತೊನೆದು, ಬಂದು ಸಿಡಿದು
ನಿನ್ನ ಭೇಟಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಶಾಂತ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ತಾಯಿ
ಬೊಚ್ಚು ಬಾಯ ಮಗು ನಾನು
ಅತ್ತು ಕರೆದು ರಚ್ಚೆ ಹಿಡಿದು
ಚಂಡಿ ಮಾಡಿ; ಅಂಡಾಗುಂಡಿ
ನಿನ್ನಪ್ಪುಗೆಯ ಹಪಹಪಿ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಕವಿ
ನಿನ್ನ ಕವಿತೆ ನಾನು
ಬರೆದು ಹರಿದು ಮತ್ತೆ
ಮತ್ತೆ ತೇಪೆ ಹಚ್ಛಿ ಹೊಲಿದ
ರೂಪಕಗಳ ನಡುವೆ ಮರೆತ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಪ್ರಾಪ್ತಿ
ಪ್ರತೀಕ್ಷೆಯ ಹಣತೆ ನಾನು
ನಿನಗೆಂದೇ ತೊಳಲಾಡಿ, ಒಳಗೇ ಮಿಡುಕಾಡಿ
ಭ್ರೂಣವಾಗಿ, ಮಗುವಾಗಿ, ಮುಗ್ಧವಾಗಿ, ಸ್ಣಿಗ್ಧವಾಗಿ
ಕೊನೆಗೆ ನಿನ್ನಿಂದಲೇ ದಗ್ಧ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ಸೂರ್ಯಕಾಂತಿ ನಾನು
ನಿನ್ನ ಸುತ್ತ ಪರಿಭ್ರಮಿಸಿ
ತನ್ನದೇ ಪಥ ಅಕ್ಷಗಳನ್ನು
ಸೃಜಿಸಿಕೊಂಡ ಪ್ರುಥೆ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಚಂದ್ರ
ಕೊಳದ ನೈದಿಲೆ ನಾನು
ಎಲೆಯ ಮೇಲಣ ನೀರ ಹನಿಯನ್ನು
ಮುತ್ತಿನಂತೆ ಸಿಂಗರಿಸುವ
ಪ್ರತಿಫಲಿಸುವ ಸಂಭ್ರಮ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಕಡಲ ತಡಿ
ನಿನ್ನ ತಾಕುವ ಬೆಲ್ನೊರೆ ಅಲೆ ನಾನು
ಬೊಬ್ಬಿರಿದು ಅಬ್ಬರಿಸಿ ಉಬ್ಬಿ
ಕೆನೆದು ತೊನೆದು, ಬಂದು ಸಿಡಿದು
ನಿನ್ನ ಭೇಟಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಶಾಂತ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ತಾಯಿ
ಬೊಚ್ಚು ಬಾಯ ಮಗು ನಾನು
ಅತ್ತು ಕರೆದು ರಚ್ಚೆ ಹಿಡಿದು
ಚಂಡಿ ಮಾಡಿ; ಅಂಡಾಗುಂಡಿ
ನಿನ್ನಪ್ಪುಗೆಯ ಹಪಹಪಿ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಕವಿ
ನಿನ್ನ ಕವಿತೆ ನಾನು
ಬರೆದು ಹರಿದು ಮತ್ತೆ
ಮತ್ತೆ ತೇಪೆ ಹಚ್ಛಿ ಹೊಲಿದ
ರೂಪಕಗಳ ನಡುವೆ ಮರೆತ - ನನ್ನ ಪ್ರೀತಿ
ನೀ ಪ್ರಾಪ್ತಿ
ಪ್ರತೀಕ್ಷೆಯ ಹಣತೆ ನಾನು
ನಿನಗೆಂದೇ ತೊಳಲಾಡಿ, ಒಳಗೇ ಮಿಡುಕಾಡಿ
ಭ್ರೂಣವಾಗಿ, ಮಗುವಾಗಿ, ಮುಗ್ಧವಾಗಿ, ಸ್ಣಿಗ್ಧವಾಗಿ
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